this is not gonna be as lengthy as hksbp's post was. i have a feeling that says- hey, maybe this post wont EVER have an ending. coz you know what? the impact of the state debate was so BIG, i cudnt get myself to forget anything about it. uhuh, i cudnt even find a good word to describe it. it's CRAZY. CRAZY!!
ive never been on any kind of public transports before. ive never ever even owned a bus ticket, nor would i ever imagine myself boarding a bus to go somewhere my mom's probably not gonna approve if i tell her. i cringe at the idea of going to the bus station, because i have a crazy thought that maybe it's somekind of a meeting place for drug dealers and gangsters. i grew up thinking that everyone around me should be treated as a stranger, and that strangers are never to be trusted. i hate it if i have to go somewhere so far from home,a place so strange to me, especially when it comes to having to stay overnight. ooof, the thought of it makes me shudder. seriously, i would never even find myself going to that extent. I WOULD NEVER DARE TO. that is, not before. grenade.
i had a whale of a time during state comp. even before state comp. seriously, i never thought we could make it, especially knowing that we didnt prepare anything for this. we only knew about state a few days before it comes, and even when we knew, we didnt put as much effort on it the way we did for hk. well yeah, i never see it as an important event like hk. it's just something that i think we have to pass, but no pressure should be taken. have fun. make it work. yadda yadda.
ok, we had a bad experience to start with. you know how i really hate public transport, and boarding on a bus was like the last thing i would want to do. but then again, maybe i would have to relent my ego for just a while. there was a glitch back at school the day we were supposed to go to muar. the van suddenly couldnt work, and they had to send it for repair. we had no other choices, so we opted for the bus. but then again, maybe not. they said that it would be such a waste of we were to go there by bus, with just 6 people, so yeah, here comes my biggest nightmare. we had to take THE BUS. as in, the expressway.
it's one thing that we had to take the bus. that's another when we had to take the cab. i was the least comfortable going on a car with someone unfamiliar behind the wheels, but i guess it was just luck that the taxi driver was actually someone quite familiar to the school, so, nothing happened. to put things short, we made it to muar after a few long, nerve-wrecking hours on the bus. ohhhhh, i felt like kissing the road the moment i stepped out of the bus. seriously, i would REALLY do that. if it weren't for the people who looked and stared at us as if we were something that came from outer space. i suddenly thought that i looked like an alien. with the green, oversized shirt and all. maybe we did looked like one. haha. or maybe it was just me.
anyways, we had dinner, which was pretty bogus, because that was the first time that i really had enough courage to eat at a roadside food stall. the food was okay, because i was freakin' starving at the time. and i had a bladder that felt like it would burst in any minutes, upon any pressure exerted. it's not metaphorically explained. it's real.
we spent the night at samura. you shouldve know how thankful i was that i didnt get to meet HER, or i would be doomed for eternity. the last thing i would wanna do (which comes after taking a ride on a public bus) was meeting her again and having to answer her questions (if she was rude or innocent enough to ask) on why i said that i didnt like her, literally. ha. i guess this is karma. you get back what you give. what you give you get back. haha. and i really was that close to meet her face-to-face, when i heard her talking to dhammy outside the sick bay where we were given permission to stay at. i was like, please... dont come in. it felt like i wanted to dig a massive hole and burry myself in it right then and there. you shouldve seen that look on my face. ive never been so scared to someone like this. i kept praying and praying that she wouldnt mention my name, nor would come in and yadda yadda. it didnt help that both syakira and adle were teasing me, making fun of of how nervous i was. well, i should be!! they laughed and i just wanted to roll over and pretend that im dead. thankfully, the whole episode didnt last long. they didnt stay talking to each other for long, and she went away just as sudden as she came. my life was spared.
the next day, we got a lift from the school's van to smk sungai abong. the first time i went there, honestly i was scared. suddenly i was schoolsick. never in my entire life did i ever think of missing my school, thinking that i shoouldve been there rather than anywhere else. but being there, it made me think things through. seriously, im GRATEFUL that mom decided to send me to a girl's school. mom knows best. maybe she knows that i wouldnt be able to deal with all of THIS thing i have to deal with at the school. IT'S UNCOMFORTABLE, and kinda makes me feel INSECURE. it felt like everywhere i go inside that school, or whatever i do, i would be in need of a partner. even when i need to go to the toilet. ESPECIALLY when i need to go to the toilet.
hu. it's even a miracle that i survived all of that. reminds me of how the first debate we had was at this one boys school in jb. still, this sittuation couldnt compare to what we had to go through there. seriously, i wouldn NEVER in my life go there, nor would i get anywhere close to that place. just thinking of it makes me........... feel insecure.
anyways, the first round (which was actually the 2nd, because we had the prelims as bye), was against smk bentara dalam, segamat. it was okay. and yeah, we won.
semi-finals, against kulai district. again, okay. and we won.
finals-- i only have one word to describe- HEATED. we were so unprepared. we didnt know that the finals was going to be on the next day after the semis, we were told that the finals was supposed to be on sunday. so we didnt prepare anything at all. so, yeah.
still, we won. even when we onle prepared our points in the 1 hour prep time they gave before the debate. it wasnt anything gruelling, since we're kinda used to the 30 mins prior debate style. uhuh. and we won.
it might not be as well described as my post on hk was, but tell you what; it's WAY more adventurous that hk. believe me, i would never in my right mind go somewhere so unfamiliar to me with just rm50 in pocket and no exact plan on where i would spend the night at. and that was just what we did. and we managed. even when we had to walk for 2 miles each and every day we were there to get to the school, because it was far from where we were staying and we couldnt afford to pay for the taximan who would charge us more than enough. still, im pleased. im not dissapointed. it was worth it.
well, there must be a first time for everything. and i had most of my first times when im with the debate family. glad that's a fact. :D
ive never been on any kind of public transports before. ive never ever even owned a bus ticket, nor would i ever imagine myself boarding a bus to go somewhere my mom's probably not gonna approve if i tell her. i cringe at the idea of going to the bus station, because i have a crazy thought that maybe it's somekind of a meeting place for drug dealers and gangsters. i grew up thinking that everyone around me should be treated as a stranger, and that strangers are never to be trusted. i hate it if i have to go somewhere so far from home,a place so strange to me, especially when it comes to having to stay overnight. ooof, the thought of it makes me shudder. seriously, i would never even find myself going to that extent. I WOULD NEVER DARE TO. that is, not before. grenade.
i had a whale of a time during state comp. even before state comp. seriously, i never thought we could make it, especially knowing that we didnt prepare anything for this. we only knew about state a few days before it comes, and even when we knew, we didnt put as much effort on it the way we did for hk. well yeah, i never see it as an important event like hk. it's just something that i think we have to pass, but no pressure should be taken. have fun. make it work. yadda yadda.
ok, we had a bad experience to start with. you know how i really hate public transport, and boarding on a bus was like the last thing i would want to do. but then again, maybe i would have to relent my ego for just a while. there was a glitch back at school the day we were supposed to go to muar. the van suddenly couldnt work, and they had to send it for repair. we had no other choices, so we opted for the bus. but then again, maybe not. they said that it would be such a waste of we were to go there by bus, with just 6 people, so yeah, here comes my biggest nightmare. we had to take THE BUS. as in, the expressway.
it's one thing that we had to take the bus. that's another when we had to take the cab. i was the least comfortable going on a car with someone unfamiliar behind the wheels, but i guess it was just luck that the taxi driver was actually someone quite familiar to the school, so, nothing happened. to put things short, we made it to muar after a few long, nerve-wrecking hours on the bus. ohhhhh, i felt like kissing the road the moment i stepped out of the bus. seriously, i would REALLY do that. if it weren't for the people who looked and stared at us as if we were something that came from outer space. i suddenly thought that i looked like an alien. with the green, oversized shirt and all. maybe we did looked like one. haha. or maybe it was just me.
anyways, we had dinner, which was pretty bogus, because that was the first time that i really had enough courage to eat at a roadside food stall. the food was okay, because i was freakin' starving at the time. and i had a bladder that felt like it would burst in any minutes, upon any pressure exerted. it's not metaphorically explained. it's real.
we spent the night at samura. you shouldve know how thankful i was that i didnt get to meet HER, or i would be doomed for eternity. the last thing i would wanna do (which comes after taking a ride on a public bus) was meeting her again and having to answer her questions (if she was rude or innocent enough to ask) on why i said that i didnt like her, literally. ha. i guess this is karma. you get back what you give. what you give you get back. haha. and i really was that close to meet her face-to-face, when i heard her talking to dhammy outside the sick bay where we were given permission to stay at. i was like, please... dont come in. it felt like i wanted to dig a massive hole and burry myself in it right then and there. you shouldve seen that look on my face. ive never been so scared to someone like this. i kept praying and praying that she wouldnt mention my name, nor would come in and yadda yadda. it didnt help that both syakira and adle were teasing me, making fun of of how nervous i was. well, i should be!! they laughed and i just wanted to roll over and pretend that im dead. thankfully, the whole episode didnt last long. they didnt stay talking to each other for long, and she went away just as sudden as she came. my life was spared.
the next day, we got a lift from the school's van to smk sungai abong. the first time i went there, honestly i was scared. suddenly i was schoolsick. never in my entire life did i ever think of missing my school, thinking that i shoouldve been there rather than anywhere else. but being there, it made me think things through. seriously, im GRATEFUL that mom decided to send me to a girl's school. mom knows best. maybe she knows that i wouldnt be able to deal with all of THIS thing i have to deal with at the school. IT'S UNCOMFORTABLE, and kinda makes me feel INSECURE. it felt like everywhere i go inside that school, or whatever i do, i would be in need of a partner. even when i need to go to the toilet. ESPECIALLY when i need to go to the toilet.
hu. it's even a miracle that i survived all of that. reminds me of how the first debate we had was at this one boys school in jb. still, this sittuation couldnt compare to what we had to go through there. seriously, i wouldn NEVER in my life go there, nor would i get anywhere close to that place. just thinking of it makes me........... feel insecure.
anyways, the first round (which was actually the 2nd, because we had the prelims as bye), was against smk bentara dalam, segamat. it was okay. and yeah, we won.
semi-finals, against kulai district. again, okay. and we won.
finals-- i only have one word to describe- HEATED. we were so unprepared. we didnt know that the finals was going to be on the next day after the semis, we were told that the finals was supposed to be on sunday. so we didnt prepare anything at all. so, yeah.
still, we won. even when we onle prepared our points in the 1 hour prep time they gave before the debate. it wasnt anything gruelling, since we're kinda used to the 30 mins prior debate style. uhuh. and we won.
it might not be as well described as my post on hk was, but tell you what; it's WAY more adventurous that hk. believe me, i would never in my right mind go somewhere so unfamiliar to me with just rm50 in pocket and no exact plan on where i would spend the night at. and that was just what we did. and we managed. even when we had to walk for 2 miles each and every day we were there to get to the school, because it was far from where we were staying and we couldnt afford to pay for the taximan who would charge us more than enough. still, im pleased. im not dissapointed. it was worth it.
well, there must be a first time for everything. and i had most of my first times when im with the debate family. glad that's a fact. :D
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