waking up this morning, i realized i was going to do something so unusual. i was going back to school, for the first time, without my parents. which in other words, not with my parents. but im still considered lucky because my family's sending me and my sisters. but to me, something luckier could happen, when there's really no one to send us back to school, so we would have to stay at home and be home-schooled. which is kinda absurd, because that would never happen. nor will my parents ever let that happen. EVER.
it's tough, living these 2 weeks of holiday without my parents. being transferred from here to there and never really being at home. it feels a little bit unwanted. and not belonging. my mind's so messed up that i couldnt even get my grammar straight. bless you, grammar skills. please make sure that it'll be fixed by the time that i get back to school and resume studying. or sir rashid would most probably fill my english modules with d- s again.
for these 2 weeks, i wasnt able to fulfill everything that ive been planning. i wanted to start having REAL tution classes, but my mom wouldnt let me, and insisted that i should just study with my sister. fine, but she forgot the fact that when im at home, i get a little bit too much of everything. which was the real reason that i wanna take tution classes outside home on the first place. so i could focus and restrain myself harder. when im at home, there's always that feeling of wanting to socialise, so i signed in my fb account. which turned out to be a very bad idea, because once i get in, there's like 0.00001% chance of getting out.
and ive also planned to finish watching all of the wgm adam couple eps, but i didnt manage to. because i was busy trying to finish my homework, or i though i was doing that.
and ive also planned to go out with my friends for the first time ever- but that was counted out even before the holiday started. my mom wouldnt let me.
i dont know how i should face my teachers back at school. because my mid year's results was a blast, in a bad way.
it's tough, living these 2 weeks of holiday without my parents. being transferred from here to there and never really being at home. it feels a little bit unwanted. and not belonging. my mind's so messed up that i couldnt even get my grammar straight. bless you, grammar skills. please make sure that it'll be fixed by the time that i get back to school and resume studying. or sir rashid would most probably fill my english modules with d- s again.
for these 2 weeks, i wasnt able to fulfill everything that ive been planning. i wanted to start having REAL tution classes, but my mom wouldnt let me, and insisted that i should just study with my sister. fine, but she forgot the fact that when im at home, i get a little bit too much of everything. which was the real reason that i wanna take tution classes outside home on the first place. so i could focus and restrain myself harder. when im at home, there's always that feeling of wanting to socialise, so i signed in my fb account. which turned out to be a very bad idea, because once i get in, there's like 0.00001% chance of getting out.
and ive also planned to finish watching all of the wgm adam couple eps, but i didnt manage to. because i was busy trying to finish my homework, or i though i was doing that.
and ive also planned to go out with my friends for the first time ever- but that was counted out even before the holiday started. my mom wouldnt let me.
i dont know how i should face my teachers back at school. because my mid year's results was a blast, in a bad way.
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