without a heart

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain



If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears


Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...


But people ask me why I'm crying...



Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again


What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeatedly?


Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals


So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating


Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper


In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go


I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go


my eyes are filling up with tears again, this seperation between us..



I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart


So I wouldn't be feeling pain


Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell


But even so, I keep shedding my tears



If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain


If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears


Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...


But people ask me why I'm crying,


when I'm laughing like this...




After you left, I think I became a fool


I can't do, I can't do anything, so I die.


I shove myself into a corner and live


Without you there's nothing left to do


A day is too long, way too long


But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely,


when you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends


was so easy, but why couldn't I do the same to you?


I always regretted being so slow,


I don't know if I'm really stupid, but I still can't let go of our bond.




I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart


Again today, I can see through your lies


My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help


How can I smile in times like this?




If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain


If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears


Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...


But people ask me why I'm crying,


when I'm laughing like this...




(let's smile) like couples in dramas


(let's smile) like the title of your blog


(let's smile) happy like in my past




I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain


I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain


Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh


Please, please let's stop crying now...