recently, ive told an old friend of mine that i plan not to just pursue medical course, and become a doctor. i plan to become a professional in the field im about to breach into, and surely gain a PhD while im at it. and then suddenly, just a few seconds after i said that, i started having doubts. 'will i be able to make it?' is part of the question. but before i start contemplating my capabilities and doubting this trust i have for myself, let's just say im sick of this kind of question.
this is a sign that my subconscious mind have detected a possible move out of my comfort zone, which i can say, is a VERY GOOD sign. whatever my doubts say that i may not be able to do, and whatever my mind says might make me feel uncomfortable and pressured, most of the time, that's the best thing to do. because that means that im starting to get over that comfort zone ive made up myself all over the years, and had been the reason of my past failures. not to say that im trying to put the blame on something else rather than me, but i actually have and had the power to change that. if i were to change this behavior of feeling scared of rejection and failure years ago, who knows, i might turn out to be a top student, and maybe graduate with honors (cheh) from high school, or maybe get the tittle overall best speaker for every debate competitions i participated in? but let's just say just for now that i gave myself the chance to taste failure at that time, so i wont have to go through it again. positive thinking much> no. i'd say it's a necessity.
i mean, come on. why try to write a success story when you can live one? whatever the mind wants to achieve, the body can concieve. or it sounds something like that. for the time being, im enjoying being me, and am positive that i will be able to get through tough times. hard work means big success. eyes on the prize, people. eyes on the prize. mom have been urging to do something which i am TOTALLY against, uhum, which she says is VERY important for my future purpose. but, mom, there'll be time to do just that in the future. if i start now, then maybe i'll venture off course, which is what im not trying to do. dont worry. when the time is right, maybe i'll find you a smart, religious world-renowned heart surgeon son-in-law, okay? you have my word for that. :D now let me find somewhere to hide after saying that out loud.
smile though your heart is aching, that's the point when you're the strongest. :D
till then, let's be good to each other. and other people.
assalamualaikum!
this is a sign that my subconscious mind have detected a possible move out of my comfort zone, which i can say, is a VERY GOOD sign. whatever my doubts say that i may not be able to do, and whatever my mind says might make me feel uncomfortable and pressured, most of the time, that's the best thing to do. because that means that im starting to get over that comfort zone ive made up myself all over the years, and had been the reason of my past failures. not to say that im trying to put the blame on something else rather than me, but i actually have and had the power to change that. if i were to change this behavior of feeling scared of rejection and failure years ago, who knows, i might turn out to be a top student, and maybe graduate with honors (cheh) from high school, or maybe get the tittle overall best speaker for every debate competitions i participated in? but let's just say just for now that i gave myself the chance to taste failure at that time, so i wont have to go through it again. positive thinking much> no. i'd say it's a necessity.
i mean, come on. why try to write a success story when you can live one? whatever the mind wants to achieve, the body can concieve. or it sounds something like that. for the time being, im enjoying being me, and am positive that i will be able to get through tough times. hard work means big success. eyes on the prize, people. eyes on the prize. mom have been urging to do something which i am TOTALLY against, uhum, which she says is VERY important for my future purpose. but, mom, there'll be time to do just that in the future. if i start now, then maybe i'll venture off course, which is what im not trying to do. dont worry. when the time is right, maybe i'll find you a smart, religious world-renowned heart surgeon son-in-law, okay? you have my word for that. :D now let me find somewhere to hide after saying that out loud.
smile though your heart is aching, that's the point when you're the strongest. :D
till then, let's be good to each other. and other people.
assalamualaikum!
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