we were taken aback with a bad news today. yeah, i think it's real bad, but not as bad as i expected. still, it's nerve-wrecking and unbearable. anyways im thankful that everything turned out fine anyway, just some bruises and a broken rib. i know the pain's still agonozing. i stick to the principle that the worst pain is the one present. i pity dad. and i really do hope and wish that he's gonna be okay and cure as soon as possible.
the moment i got the news, i was shocked, frozen, stoned, stumped. it couldnt be described in any words possible. you wont get it until u experience it urself. u see, ive already lost someone bcoz of a crash, and i cant afford to lose another.
this is just the reason why im not gonna apply for a driving license even when ive passed 18. no way im gonna put a risk to lives. coz i know im reckless and kinda absentminded at times, and yeah, easily distracted even when im driving at 100 km/h. you see the reason why i dont want to do it, right? besides, my own experience of surviving an accident when i was just 4 gave me a lesson, never to put myself behind wheels for the rest of my life. uh'uh. no can do, mister.
but when ive completed shut out any possibilities of me driving a car, the only option left is to drive a bike. the thing is, mom's not gonna like it if her anak dara is seen riding a bike anywhere she goes. she wont see it as a feminine enuf thing to do. as if im really that feminine anyway. i dont see why some of my friends say im really that feminine when im not. i get totally mad and throw things sometimes, and that's certainly nothing beyond feminine. and i pick my nose. for goodness' sake who wouldnt? dont you pick ur nose?
maybe someday mom's gonna give me a lecture on being a real woman. someday's getting closer, especially when im turning 17 pretty soon.
kak ngah, this is also a reminder. go get me a present. i dont want anything catchy, just a shinee, suju or 2am/pm latest album if you can afford. that's the least you could get for me. nothing less than that, okie?
the moment i got the news, i was shocked, frozen, stoned, stumped. it couldnt be described in any words possible. you wont get it until u experience it urself. u see, ive already lost someone bcoz of a crash, and i cant afford to lose another.
this is just the reason why im not gonna apply for a driving license even when ive passed 18. no way im gonna put a risk to lives. coz i know im reckless and kinda absentminded at times, and yeah, easily distracted even when im driving at 100 km/h. you see the reason why i dont want to do it, right? besides, my own experience of surviving an accident when i was just 4 gave me a lesson, never to put myself behind wheels for the rest of my life. uh'uh. no can do, mister.
but when ive completed shut out any possibilities of me driving a car, the only option left is to drive a bike. the thing is, mom's not gonna like it if her anak dara is seen riding a bike anywhere she goes. she wont see it as a feminine enuf thing to do. as if im really that feminine anyway. i dont see why some of my friends say im really that feminine when im not. i get totally mad and throw things sometimes, and that's certainly nothing beyond feminine. and i pick my nose. for goodness' sake who wouldnt? dont you pick ur nose?
maybe someday mom's gonna give me a lecture on being a real woman. someday's getting closer, especially when im turning 17 pretty soon.
kak ngah, this is also a reminder. go get me a present. i dont want anything catchy, just a shinee, suju or 2am/pm latest album if you can afford. that's the least you could get for me. nothing less than that, okie?
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