this year's the first time we actually really participated in a u-style debate, and yeah, it was kinda depressing. to be honest, i was dissapointed. not with my team, but with myself. there were some slight complications with the team's structure and strategy, but that was resolved right then and there, but still, i see that im still in the same condition as i were 4 years ago. i see now that there's more people who are better than me out there, and what i am right now is actually close to nothing if you want to compare with them. anyways, im actually thankful that we were there. because i could see what i should improve on. im no more the 2nd speaker. yes, kimi was right. ishudve taken the 1st speaker anyway. now im not really that afraid on representing and laying out the case for our team. i was actually excited to give my speech when i was the pm! that was actually kinda weird, because usually the PMs are the people who's going to mess up because of nerves and so on, but i was nothing close to do that. it kinda felt like i wanted to prove something to the whole house. like there's something im owing to the adjus and the audience. yeah, something like that.
anyways, i wud say that kdu dis year, was like a reacting of iium in 2008. why? well, there's too much drama for me to handle. first is the fact that i met so many people from my past (yeah,yeah) and plus another person that i really didnt want to meet on the first place- which was sakinah. i dont knw what the sign actually meant. or if it did have a sign or not. you get the idea, yeah.
now that im back home, im kinda tired. and there's like tonnes of hw to be done. i really want to lay back and relax for a few days (to my mom's chagrin, no way) but the thing is, im not allowed to. whenever i wanna have some fun or just lay back and read a novel or something, mom's gonna give me a lecture on how close the spm is coming and yadda yadda, mainly about my studies. yeah, you could tell that it;s depressing. very. especially when you're already facing that kind of pressure when you're at school. the fact that you would have to deal with that at school plus at home is really equal to annoying.
anyways, i dont care anymore
emyl's just back from singapore. i told her about the kinah thing, and i could tell that she couldnt be more interested. she just asked me if i said anything to afaf. basically she just wanted to know if i actually talked to afaf, which i didnt do, because i would look like an idiot or a maniac if i do so. i really couldnt care less about talking to afaf anyway. it's not like he's an important person in the debate community. chet. hahahahaa
im addicted to the song 'thank god i found you' right now. yeah2, i know it's kinda too old already, but it's really nice.
okok,, getting sleepy. have to go now.
i know i might sound kinda boring today, but who cares? sape jerk yang bace minatang ni pon kan? so im like very free to say anything i wanna say
pika
anyways, i wud say that kdu dis year, was like a reacting of iium in 2008. why? well, there's too much drama for me to handle. first is the fact that i met so many people from my past (yeah,yeah) and plus another person that i really didnt want to meet on the first place- which was sakinah. i dont knw what the sign actually meant. or if it did have a sign or not. you get the idea, yeah.
now that im back home, im kinda tired. and there's like tonnes of hw to be done. i really want to lay back and relax for a few days (to my mom's chagrin, no way) but the thing is, im not allowed to. whenever i wanna have some fun or just lay back and read a novel or something, mom's gonna give me a lecture on how close the spm is coming and yadda yadda, mainly about my studies. yeah, you could tell that it;s depressing. very. especially when you're already facing that kind of pressure when you're at school. the fact that you would have to deal with that at school plus at home is really equal to annoying.
anyways, i dont care anymore
emyl's just back from singapore. i told her about the kinah thing, and i could tell that she couldnt be more interested. she just asked me if i said anything to afaf. basically she just wanted to know if i actually talked to afaf, which i didnt do, because i would look like an idiot or a maniac if i do so. i really couldnt care less about talking to afaf anyway. it's not like he's an important person in the debate community. chet. hahahahaa
im addicted to the song 'thank god i found you' right now. yeah2, i know it's kinda too old already, but it's really nice.
okok,, getting sleepy. have to go now.
i know i might sound kinda boring today, but who cares? sape jerk yang bace minatang ni pon kan? so im like very free to say anything i wanna say
pika
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