Being restless, having doubts

Will I be able to make it into the top 71? Will I be able to make my own dreams come true? Will everything I've sacrificed be worth the cause? Will I finally make myself, my family and my teachers proud? O gosh, it's scarring me to bits the fact that I don't feel the tiniest bit worried about what tomorrow migh hold out for me. Why am i not jumping out of my skin right now? I don't even feel confident with myself. How come I could be so reckless with my feelings right now. Syafiqah, show some feelings!!!