right now, i just have to act strong, i guess.
hm. it would be downright lying if i say that i was not even the least bit hurt on what happened. to be honest im hurting, it dissapointed me to the point that i dont even want to be reminded of it anymore. there's nothing i wanted to do more at the time than get my head hit pretty hard on something and suddenly losing my memory. that would be better than trying to recover and pretend like id never felt anything ive felt before or pretend to not know those person uve known before.
well, like i say, life's like that. it'll never be go the way you wanted it to be. ive known about that all along. it's just weird why i was still keen on getting myself hurt on the first place.
in life, there's nothing more that i have to ask. i just want to be happy. to be appreciated for myself, not by trying to become someone else im not. but these people had a different idea, i guess.
well, i realise today that i dont want to care anymore. i would never again take the time to think about someone else. a few years back when someone told me the phrase 'in a selfish world, only the selfish succeeds', i thought it was superficial. selfish, i never wanted to be that way, i wanted to be kind and make everyone love me. but no, by being kind im just getting myself into more trouble. because people think that they could get all over me and get away with it, because i would never stand up for myself. now i know the relevance behind it all.the real reason why that person decided to keep with that philsophy in her life.
let's just say that i dont care.
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