im physically and emotionally drained. i have no idea where this is heading, nor what im doing at the moment, or what path im taking to get wherever this is leading me. im tired of just going with the flow, and pretending to think that everything's completely okay.
normality doesnt go well with my name.
ive known from the start that this will be a rather disastrous environment to adapt into, and that i should be prepared for the worst-case scenarios in any time since the day i came here. but no amount of preparation either mentally, physically or emotionally can help me to get out from this mountain of trouble im so deep in. this is more like an impasse. there's no way out, but then again, how did you get in anyways?
i know that this might sound childish coming from a 17 turning on 18 in just a few days' time, but this is what i couldnt say out loud. it wasnt that there were no great times at all, but if you ask me, id say that i prefer what i had before.
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